I am miserable.
Im going to punch the next person who says "But it will be worth it" in the face.
My entire body is covered with this THING that has plagued my life.
Im not used to being so cynical. But I cant help it at this point. It has consumed my life. PUPPP is all I can think about.
I dont want to leave my house for fear that I will start itching. I dont want to do house work, because EVERYTHING makes me itch uncontrollably to the point of tears.
I slept well last night. I cant believe it. But today... today, is the WORST. I cant imagine it getting any worse.
As I write this, my poor swollen hands are throbbing. My toes are itching, and I want to claw into my belly.
All at the same time.
I need for this to end. I am now taking Dandelion root capsules, which are said to help... but it takes 3-5 days. Today is day number 2.
I made an ill joke yesterday on my blog. I said something along the lines of woman jumping off a bridge before Gold Bond, and having to deal with PUPPPS.
I take that back. People REALLY do commit suicide over this horrible disease. Thank God for my husband and my family. They check on me so often, and do anything and everything I need... I would be lost right now without them.
There has to be a relief for me out there. I cant go another 4 weeks like this. I am praying long and hard that this ends for me soon.
I wish I could even mutter a joke about this. But its just not funny. This is hell. And I want out.