Saturday, August 28, 2010

jokes on us?

Oh baby, baby, baby....

You are quite the funny one. Mama and daddy went for our sonogram this morning to see if you were a boy or girl. Our hearts were pounding with excitement, and you decided to play a little joke on us!

The lady said you wouldn't open your little legs, so she had no idea what you are. THEN, she says... "Well, it LOOKS like it MIGHT be a boy.. but we cant really tell, so you will have to come  back next week..."

That's right honey. You MIGHT be a boy, but we wont know for sure until next week More anticipation.

Mama and Daddy enjoyed seeing you stretch and yawn, rub your eyes, suck your thumb, twist and turn in my belly today. You are so perfect.

Love you little one,

The night before....

Dear Nugget,

Mama has affectionately referred to you as Nugget for the past 15 weeks. I'm not sure why, just something that sprung into my head  the day the glorious word "positive" flashed on my pee stick that told me that you would be here in 9 very long months. In 4 hours, I will retire the name "nugget" as you will have a REAL name of your very own.

Mama and daddy went to bed around 11:30pm, last night after much procrastination from Mama. "I just want be realllllllly tired so I can actually sleep". What a joke. After laying in bed from 11:30pm until 6am, I MAYBE got 2 hours of sleep, and not interrupted.. because thoughts of you flooded every single dream, and I had to keep waking myself to see what time it was, and then pray that God would make time go faster.

At 10:45am today, a lady will rub cold goop all over Mamas growing belly. Daddy will stand tall next to me, and she will hold a  special machine to my belly... as pictures of your sweet beautiful self show themselves on a TV screen. I can not wait for daddy to see you kick and squirm. He is going to be so proud to see his perfect Angel. The lady will then take a few peeks, and decide if you are a girl or a boy. And as soon as she tells us, Mama is sure to lose it. Even though Daddy is super tough, and you will probably go your whole life and MAYBE see him cry 3 times, I know he will be overwhelmed with joy. I wish we could photograph our faces so you can see you much we love you already.

The anticipation is driving me nuts. Not because it matters whether you are a boy or girl, because you will be perfect for me in every way shape and form. The anticipation is because I can finally put a name to your precious face.

Daddy and I painstakingly chose your name, after months of debating. Actually, years. Wayyy before you were in my belly, Daddy and I would have these fun conversations that would start by one of us saying... "One day, when we have a baby... what are we going to name him? What are we going to name her?" Some of them were silly, some were traditional. Mama and Daddy argued a little over some of them. He thought it was the best name ever, and I just didn't think it would be perfect enough. Or I would say a name, and Daddy would look at Mama like I had 4 eye balls.

If you are a girl, we are excited about giving you such a beautiful name. If you are a boy, we are so proud to hand you the name that you will maybe one day hand down to your son.

10:45am can not come soon enough already! Daddy is snoring away! He is very excited also, he just had a very long, hard week at work and needs his rest. But I can promise that Daddy is dreaming sweet dreams of his baby.

Will you be a rough and tough little boy who gives his Mama sloppy kisses? Or a princess who holds her Daddy's hand whenever she can? Will you love baseball and watching sports? Or will you love spending time with Mama, like I enjoy spending time with I Nana? Will you ask for bedtime stories about dragons and hero's, or princesses in far away lands? Will you clomp around the house in Mamas high heels, or drag around Daddy's favorite baseball bat? Will Daddy be your hero? Will I be your best friend?

Will you ever truly understand just how much Daddy and I love and adore you? Will you ever anticipate something as much as we anticipate you?

I pray that Daddy and I will be able to show you every single day for the rest of your life, just how much we love you. We will live our lives for the sweet baby that is growing in Mamas belly. Every single decision and choice we make, will revolve around whats best for you and our overwhelming amount of love we have for our sweet miracle.

I thank God for you everyday. He gave me you, as a beautiful gift. The greatest gift anyone could ever be given. And I plan to do whatever it takes, everyday of my life to show him how thankful I am.

Every inch of my heart,

Friday, August 20, 2010

letters to baby #2

Hello my sweet angel,

Well, here we are... a day shy of 14 weeks pregnant. Becoming more and more anxious everyday to see your face, smell your soft baby skin, and stare into your big beautiful eyes you are bound to have. Sometimes I cant believe I still have 26 weeks until I get to snuggle you in my arms, and other times I have to remind myself.. that I ONLY have 26 weeks until the most important person in my whole world will be here.

In 1 week from tomorrow, Daddy and I get to find out if youre a girl or boy (If you decide to cooperate!). We are so excited! Will we be signing you up for baseball or ballet? Will we be buying you a ball and glove or a tutu? Will you be mamas little man or daddy's little princess? Either way, we love you so much already. What you are does not matter. What matters is that God has blessed us with you and that mama and daddy are the best parents to you, so that you will be provided with every single opportunity possible on this earth. Pink or blue, either one, we will be so happy.

You are going to make mama and daddy a family. We will no longer be a married couple, but a family of 3. And when we feel that you are ready, we will be a family or 4 and maybe, if daddy gives mama her way, a family of 5. I cant wait to meet you and your siblings. I pray that you will love your life long best friends as much as I love Tio Dennis and Uncle Vince.

Everyday, I ask  myself if I am going to be good enough for you. Will I be able to lead you in the right direction? Will I be able to teach you right from wrong? Will I be able to teach you about God and all the good that there is on this earth while shielding you from the bad? But, what if I shield  you too much? I don't want you to grow up naive either. I want you to have a strong head, a kind soul, and a heart full of love and God. I hope I will be able to teach you by example.
I cant wait to buy you a book shelf, and start filling it with books. Books that you will one day pass on to your kids, who will pass them on to their kids. I will read to you every single day. Reading is so important in mama and daddy's life. We hope that you love books like we do. There is so much to learn and discover in books. You can explore the world in your very own bedroom.

I pray for you everyday. Not only for your health while you grow in my belly, but for you when you are out here in the real world. I pray that you will love life, laugh everyday, and smile every time you can. I pray that you will enjoy the sunshine, and cuddling up with mama when its raining outside. I pray that one day, decades from now, you will meet another person who will be the other half that makes you whole. I pray that you will love that person, and respect that person, and NEED that person. Just like mama and daddy love, respect, and need each other. And just like we love, respect, and need you.

Good evening my sweetheart,

Friday, August 13, 2010

Helllllllo 2nd trimester!!!

Total Weight Gain:
Still only 1.5! So proud of me!

Maternity Clothes:
Not completely. Depending on the day, I can still wear my regular jeans.

Stretch Marks:
AUGH!!!! Yes. Already. help!

Waiting for that burst of energy the world keeps telling me about.....

Best moment of the month:
Seeing my sweet precious baby kick away at my 12 week appointment.

not yet, but soon!

Food Cravings:
Peanut butter and jelly sandwiches, Cobb salads, Sprite, apple sauce

Food Aversions:

Belly button:
Its still just fine!

What I miss:

What Im looking forward to:
looking pregnant and not like a cow.

Weekly Wisdom:
Still sticking with the let go, and let God. Life is gonna throw curve balls. Just gotta be ready for them!

Feeling my belly get round and hard! and reaching the beautiful sound of the 2nd trimester! Thank God!

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Letters to baby

Dear sweet baby,

Mama has been so preoccupied with life and YOU that she has allowed her lovely blog to slide a bit. Ive decided that to keep you updated on everything that Daddy and I are going through, I will write you letters. One day, we will read these letters together and laugh and cry and I'm almost positive you will make fun of me for being such a big dork. (Moms are allowed to be dorks)

Daddy has been working so very hard to make sure that everything is perfect for when you get here. We want to make sure that when you are here in our arms, everything in our world and your little world will be as worry-free and enjoyable as possible. We were supposed to move into a new apartment last weekend, but decided that it wasn't perfect enough for you. Only the best for our sweet baby. So, for a week, we have been living at Abuelo and Nana's house. Sleeping in the same room I grew up in, and the same room you will one day have sleep overs in when Mama and Daddy need a date night. The room is full of pink, so hopefully if you're a boy, you can sleep in uncle Vincents room instead. Daddy and I with the help of some good friends will be moving into a much more perfect place this weekend. I am excited for this to be your first home.

Nana and I are already busy planning YOUR welcome party. I don't want to call it a baby shower, because my life is all about celebrating you. Daddy and my life will forever be all about you, and the wonderful blessing God has given us. You are only a tiny 2 inch baby, but you have already filled me and daddy's heart. We love you so  much, its overwhelming. Your baby celebrations will have abundant food, colorful decorations, and beautiful details. Because you have made my life abundant, colorful, and so beautiful.

My 25th birthday was 3 weeks ago. I was surrounded by friends and family all weekend, and had the best birthday ever. Mainly because you are the greatest gift I could have ever wanted. Soon, you will be able to meet all of these friends and family who all love you and are excited for you to join us. I got to blow out birthday candles 3 times! And each time, my birthday wish is for you to be a healthy baby, and that I would be the absolute best mommy possible.

I prayed the other day, that your life will be blessed with friends as great as me and daddy's. I prayed that you will have boys and girls in your life that you can depend on, and turn to when life gets a little tough. I pray that you will know which friends need to be let go, which friends are worth the fight, and which friends will become your back bone, your blood, and your family. Friends that are like family are so important. I pray that you are blessed with that in your life. Daddy and I are so blessed to be surrounded by "sisters and brothers"....

I pray that you will have an honest heart, and a strong conscious. I pray that you will find the power in being truthful, and have a strong sense of knowing the difference between whats right and wrong.

I pray for myself a lot too. I pray that I will be able to instill in you the same morals that Nana instilled in me. I want to be your mother and your best friend. I want you to tell me about you bad days, and your good days. I want to celebrate all your triumphs, and pick you up and dust you off when you've have a bad day. I want you to never go a day without knowing how passionately Daddy and I love you, and how badly we wanted you. You will never be lonely. We will be there for you, forever. You are so blessed to have such a wonderful Daddy. Daddy is so excited for your to get here. He cant wait to teach you about baseball and buy you pretty things. To go on long walks while you hold his hand, and take you fishing. We are so lucky to have daddy. I couldn't have picked a better daddy for you. I'm pretty excited he picked me to be your mommy =)

I love you, sweet baby...
Until next time,